A Wishful Thinker……

My HP Pavilion Notebook has decided to stop working. So I went to give HP tech support a call. I spent half an hour on hold, before being connected to some guy in an Indian call center who told me to switch on and off my notebook, and coming to the conclusion that my notebook is not working. Well NS genius! Hence why i called in the first place to find out where the service center is!!! ARGH! Seriously! HP really needs to reevaluate their customer service. I didn’t pay close to two grand to sit on hold for half an hour waiting for someone to tell me where the freaking service centre is. Not to mention the service centre is up northside. Why couldn’t they find a place more central?! Now I gotta waste my Wednesday morning driving up there to have the notebook looked at.

So lets see, what has my past few days been like…. well at the moment I need people to remind me what day it is seeing as I’ve been going to uni everyday for the past two weeks even though I don’t have to. I woke up today thinking it was Thursday as we had spent all weekend in the library at uni. :S I am so sleep deprived, and the only contact I have to the outside world right now is on MSN. This is so sad. :S

3, 6, 9
The goose drank wine
The monkey chew tobacco on the streetcar line
The line broke, the monkey got choked
And they all went to heaven in a little rowboat

Clap Clap! Clap Clap!

I’ve had the need to unwind after having the crappy last few days. I love this song.

Yeah. Group problems again. Really in a stink this time. I’m trying to fix the problem by the end of this week so that we have enough time to get our work done. No one has taken control of the situation at all. I went to see my lecturer today, and he told me I couldn’t transfer out of the group. I think I’m just gonna take over the group leader position. The current girl took control, but she pretty much stuffed it up. She went to choose a topic for our group which had she turned up to the lectures would have heard the lecturer say to avoid doing. We had to agree with her as we were out of time to pick another topic. Argh! Not to mention she has it in her head, that if she can’t make a meeting, we aren’t allowed to have one. WE HAVE FIVE PEOPLE IN THE GROUP!!! If one or two people can’t turn up, it is not an excuse to cancel meetings!!!!  ARGH!  At least now I have bought it to the attention of the lecturer, and he has told me that if they still refuse to cooperate, I was to drag them all to his office and he will help mediate.

Anyways, I had been stressing about this the past few weeks, so I feel a little bit better that now something has happened. I went to the park with Juz yesterday afternoon. I thought the park was so cool!! I think I scared some of the parents and the kids in the park. I was so enthusiastic about everything, that I had a go at all the playground stuff. I even freaked Juz out! That doesn’t happen very often. Only when I told Michael about it he started telling me about how people he knew went up there at night to get high or to … er… consummate a relationship. X( Did he really have to ruin it for me? Oh well. I think I shall drag him up there one day and make him see how much he is missing out. I’m sure my powers of selective hearing shall prevail! I’m gonna head off to bed now. So tired.

The past couple of nights, I’ve been having really odd morbid dreams. I don’t know what they mean.

The first night I dreamt that I was having lunch in a cafe with a friend. I went inside the cafe to talk to the waiter about a drink, and when I came out my friend accused me of leaving him sitting there for 4 hours. I got confused and screamed back that I had only just walked in, and then I looked at the clock and it was four hours ahead of the time when I went in. Then I suddenly asked if he was drugging me and was trying to get me paranoid. The next thing I knew, I fell over and everything blacks out, when I wake up I’m in the car the guy is driving(I say friend, but I have never met this person in my life) and i ask to be let out, he tells me that no, so I open the door and jump out. Then I wake up.

Last night I had another dream. Kinda in the same situation yet again. This time I’m visiting some guy with my friends to discuss a singing contract(?!). Then this guy comes in just as my friends and I are leaving. He pulls out a gun, grenades, and a blow torch. The guy then kills the the guy we just had the meeting with, and my friends and I freak out and we all run in different directions screaming. I run for the front door. But the door is too far away still when I hear him coming so I jump behind a couch to hide. Only he knows I’m there, and he burns the couch and grabs me when I run out. He then tries to burn me, but then changes his mind and says I can be a hostage. I tell him I don’t know him and he has to let me go, but he says he’s locked the door and if I try to escape he will kill me. he goes off to find the others, and I see a phone, so i grab it and call 000. The operator tells me that some neighbours had already called after hearing our screams and gunshots, and that someone else in the house has called. She then asks me where abouts I am, but I can’t tell her because the guy comes back and he is dragging in my friend’s body. Her face is all burnt. I chuck the phone to one side, so that he can’t see it. Then I get told, that is what is going to happen if I dont’ comply. The killer then makes me get in the car parked by the door, and then I get woken up by my mum telling me she’s leaving the house and for me to remember locking up. :S

Am I nuts?

Am I really that random?

Ok. So people tell me that I’m random all the time. I don’t quite know if it is a good thing or a bad thing. I mean, I guess it is good in a way cause I don’t pass judgment about people until I meet and get to know them. I find it really annoying however that people think I’m “angry”, or “snobby” because when I walk around uni, I become overly self-conscious, so I tend to stare ahead and walk really really really fast to my destination and avoid eye contact with everyone. I’m working that btw. Sometimes however, I think people think I’m not listening to them because I ask a completely unrelated question. For example. Lets use my brother, I was doing the dishes, and he was asking me about which fruit I wanted. I accidentally stuck my finger into a glob of dad’s homemade sambal. My family are chili freaks, so you can imagine how hot that is. Anyways, my finger started to sting and my bro was still asking me if I wanted my pear peeled or not. I shook my head thinking he saw me, and then said: “My finger is spicy.” He looked up at me and started laughing at me. Then he goes: “OMG, you really are random.” I’m like “Huh? What? Who said?” He didn’t reply, so I don’t know who told him that. People keep saying that about me. Sometimes I’m trying to change the topic, and rather than start a a conversation that can lead into it, I think that takes too long, so I just say what ever. It’s not my fault people are so slow they need a lead in.

So yes. I think I’m annoyed with people today. That or I got way too much time on my hands as of late. I was just analyzing my friendship with someone the other day. The way we me, and they reason why we are such good friends. It occurred to me that this friend is a nice enough person, but I have reasons to believe that they became friends with me based on certain assumptions about me. I have met the person’s mother, and from what I saw and what I was told about the Aunty. I think she is one of those social climbers. I got the feeling she doesn’t approve of me due to the circumstances that lead to our friendship, and thinks I will lead her baby astray. Only thing is I don’t think she quite realizes is that it is in fact the other way around. Again I shall stress, that I get along with this friend really well, and I consider this person a true friend for life, but there are certain beliefs held by this person that I don’t quite agree with, and for the sake of our friendship, I doubt I will ever bring it to their attention. Lets just say, to base an opinion of a person on the reasoning of the way they look,their family, their creed,their salary, or more importantly their occupation, is one of the worse ways to judge a person. Not to mention all the experiences in life they will miss out on. I get angry when this friend says something negative about a certain group of people, I sometimes feel like screaming them: “I’m friends with people like that! Do you have a problem with me also?!” This friend also cannot see the hypocrisy of what they says sometimes, which annoys me more, because I don’t know if they are doing it to mock the group of people they dislike, or they really are that naive that they think those people don’t hate people like them. I know I do say things about people sometimes, like the way a person is dressed, but I’ll say it as a joke, but never anything derogatory, or based on the person’s life. I just know that I get annoyed sometimes by this friend. They way I have been treated by this person, I know if it was the other way around they would have ended our friendship a long time ago.

Am I too forgiving to let this person get away with so much? When they aren’t busy judging people, the person is a really great friend. We have heaps of stuff in common and they have listened to me when I wanted to just vent. I think I’ve had too much time…..*sigh*

So the name may sound wrong. His moves look so very wrong…. but damn I have not seen anything this funny in quite awhile. Before I freak you out and people contact administrators believing I am posting porn or whatever, I’ll give you a brief outline on who this guy is. “Razor Ramon Sumitani Hard Gay” or just “Hard Gay” or even “HG” is a character created and performed by Japanese comedian, Masaki Sumitani. Hard Gay goes around Japan dressed in a black leather outfit, helping the community, although it may sometimes be kinda hard to notice with his signature pelvic thrusts and over enthusiasm, may shock audiences more than entertain them. All the same I found him hilarious. WEll int he clip that I’m posting, he is doing a segment where he tries to “fix” kid’s dislike of certain food. The first one is a Green Pepper, adn the second one is Natto which is made from Japanese fermented soybeans. I love these kids expressions. Enjoy!!!

Hard Gay: Green Pepper

Hard Gay: Natto